At periods I have look at back and saw what at the possibility of what horror and love could bring and apply my life to it and sought this balance. To have been loved and lost the feeling of completion and then to come to the understanding some things are not mean to be and we have no control over our fate, but we are to be thankful for the days that we have been given and breath, and keep on nurturing life and paying attention to the vulnerable love and to be open to vulnerability of kindness of the one in front of you not that one from your passed. To be open to loving and nurturing that person that comes to you with their heart in their hand. Not to ask for it just to be available for I have been the owner of a lonely heart.